Medications, Memory, Freedom

I’m sorry I’ve been MIA lately. I’ve been adjusting to new, much lower, med dosages. I cut my meds in half and deleted 2. I feel amazing. My memory has improved almost 100%. I rarely lose my thought anymore. There for awhile, I couldn’t think a thought all the way through. I would forget mid thought. I thought I was getting dementia. My meds are psychotropics….mood stabilizers. Since I am diagnosed with bipolar 1, I’ve been heavily medicated for 2o years. I’m finally freeing myself. I can’t believe the fog I’ve lived in for so long. My mind is now sharp once again. I haven’t felt like this in over 2o years. I’m not depressed and I’m not manic. I’m just me. The real me. I wish mom was still alive to see this happen…..she always told me that she missed the old me. I went to a birthday party this past weekend, and I started conversations with lots of people. That’s not something I normally do. I’ve been to shy and reserved. Now, my old friendly self has emerged. I’m excited. Im hoping to get down to 1 med.