Author: moonmaiden333

Depression is a common mental health condition characterized by persistent feelings of sadness, loss of interest in activities, and changes in behavior, thinking, and sleep. It can manifest in various forms, including major depressive disorder, and is treatable through therapy, medication, or a combination of both.

My boyfriend from 4th grade to 7th grade has recently committed suicide. My heart hurts for him. Even tho I moved away in the middle of 7th grade, I’ve loved him always. Even now. I’m so sad over it. Depression is so real and it’s debilitating.

I’ve been down that road myself, however, I never could commit suicide. I couldn’t do that to my kids and my family. Please reach out to friends and family who seem down and depressed. I’m so sorry that people think killing themselves is the only answer to their problems……

I wish he could hear me when I talk to him. Yes, I talk to him out loud, even. He was one of my kindred souls, I’m sure of it. How many children fall in love and love them their whole life? Rare. But I loved him deeply and I always will.

Old friends

I just found out tonight that my childhood friend is coming to see me next month. We’ve been friends since the summer after 6th grade. I’m glad our friendship survived all these years. We are 62 years old now……long time friends. I moved out of my childhood town and it was heart wrenching. I left her behind and also a boy I cared for deeply. He was my boyfriend from 4th grade to 7th grade. That’s a long time for mere children, and prolly quite rare. My next post is about him…..

home plans/moving to the country

Our friends are going to buy a big chunk of land and they are going to let us live on the land too. We have a house picked out already. There’s lots to do once the property is bought. Tree it, fireproof it…..put in electric, well, and septic. Plus prep the home site to put the house on it when it’s time. We need to fix up current home to sell. It won’t sell the way it is right now. Anyhow, I’m really looking forward to living in the country. Peace and quiet……we applied for an equity loan to fix this house up to sell…..we don’t know if we will get approved or not….we shall see. Wish us luck!

Vacations

My bestie is in Thailand with a friend on a 2 week vacation. She’s having an amazing time. She texted me saying to get my passport cause she’s taking me on a trip. I’m hoping for Belize, but I have no idea what she’s thinking. She said she doesn’t know where yet…

Possible vacation to Florida in March next year. My bestie when I lived in Las Vegas now lives in Florida and I really want to go see her. And…Don and I have never been to Florida. We will go out on her boat and do some fishing. Hubby will love that! I talked to her about it. She said we can stay at her house.

update

It’s been a really long time since I have written. Right now I’ve been making my Christmas cards. I need 40. I have about 16 done so far. I’m going to work on them this weekend.
It’s football season again. Been watching just on sundays.
I have decreased my meds a little bit and I’m doing well. I have my bipolar days, but they aren’t too bad.

It’s almost the end of October. I’ve been doing a lot of Christmas shopping. We are getting a new tree this year and I’m going to decorate it with blue lights and beach ornaments. I’m excited. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
‘I started a new med for my fibromyalgia . It seems to be helping a tad bit. I still hurt all over most of the time.

Halloween is coming up and I still need to send my grandkids their buckets full of candy. I will do it soon. We aren’t going out on Halloween as hubby has to work.

I can’t wait to show you my new tarot cards. I got them in Utah when my friend and I drove down there.
‘Thanks for being here with me.
‘goodnight.

Medications, Memory, Freedom

I’m sorry I’ve been MIA lately. I’ve been adjusting to new, much lower, med dosages. I cut my meds in half and deleted 2. I feel amazing. My memory has improved almost 100%. I rarely lose my thought anymore. There for awhile, I couldn’t think a thought all the way through. I would forget mid thought. I thought I was getting dementia. My meds are psychotropics….mood stabilizers. Since I am diagnosed with bipolar 1, I’ve been heavily medicated for 2o years. I’m finally freeing myself. I can’t believe the fog I’ve lived in for so long. My mind is now sharp once again. I haven’t felt like this in over 2o years. I’m not depressed and I’m not manic. I’m just me. The real me. I wish mom was still alive to see this happen…..she always told me that she missed the old me. I went to a birthday party this past weekend, and I started conversations with lots of people. That’s not something I normally do. I’ve been to shy and reserved. Now, my old friendly self has emerged. I’m excited. Im hoping to get down to 1 med.